Worst that Can Happen?
I’m tired of being a
tragedy-oriented person. So last month I decided I’m no longer going to always
expect the worst.
That said, a few weeks ago I
was cutting pears for dessert. I heard the buzz of my husband
Bob’s chainsaw. “He’s cutting down a tree,” I said to myself.
“He’s fine.” I kept slicing. “Fine, fine, fine, fine.” I heard
the tree fall. “I’m not checking on him.” I took a little
sliver out of my thumb. During this bloody episode, my
“normal” self had a minute to slip in, accompanied by the
sirens of the God of
Neurotica.
“A limb went through his
heart,” they called from my not-very-sub conscious.
I answered, “No. He’s
fine.”
“He sawed into a swarm of
killer bees and they’ve sucked out his
eyes.”
“No.” I continued with the
pears.
“He’s
DEAD!”
OK. That did it. I looked
out the front door but couldn’t see Bob. And that was because
he was lying on the ground . . . under the fallen
tree . . . with a broken leg.
I ran to him and cradled his
head in my arms as he tried to speak. He opened his
tear-filled eyes, looked up at me while in agonizing pain and
whispered, “Please don’t write about this.” I promised I
wouldn’t. When people are in shock, they forget everything so
you can promise anything you
want.
So now Bob’s in a cast and
can’t do much. But that’s OK, because I won’t let him do
anything that requires heavy equipment, such as spoons.
Judging from something he said last night, I think I’m getting
on his nerves.
He said, “You’re really
getting on my nerves,” and hobbled off to the kitchen. where
he got the can opener for the coffee. I grabbed it. “I’ll do
that.”
He took it back. “I’m nearly
helpless and you’re making it
worse.”
I pried it out of his hands.
“It’s good to share your feelings, Bob.” I opened the can.
“Getting rid of pent-up emotion is good for the colon, and
aches and pains in
general.”
“Well, I do have one big
pain . . . in the
neck.”
And so, we haven’t been able
to do things together like take long drives or go hiking. Last
week, we went to Friendly’s and shared a hot fudge sundae in
the front seat of our truck. We giggled while having the
delightfully forbidden ambrosia. Later, I emailed my pal Deb,
and told her that we didn’t do anything today - just had ice
cream. She replied, “I hope your ice cream was magic.”
I told Bob about her
message. He was on the couch, trying to scratch under the
cast, but he couldn’t. Then he was having a hard time, I could
tell, asking me to do yet another favor for him that day. He
wasn’t even able to get his own Kleenex or play tug-of-war
with our dog and her favorite stuffed hedgehog. And he was
obviously so sick of
this.
I sat by him and massaged
his foot. “Hiking in the woods would have been a lot more
magical than ice cream,” I said.
But then, as I often do, I
pretended to look down at this scene from above. I saw two
cranky people cloistered inside, not enjoying the gorgeous
autumn day. And then, a new scene slowly washed over. I saw a
tender moment in time with me scratching Bob’s leg as we sat
quietly in our home. I saw the vibrant fall colors of the
bittersweet, in full bud right outside our window. I saw a man
with a broken leg that would surely improve with time. And I
knew how lucky we were to be together, on this day that dreams
are made of, when we joyously shared an ice
cream.
If that’s not magic, I don’t know what is.